We've been in the states for over a week now.
Everyone told me it would be easier.
They told me a switch would click once I landed stateside, and I would be able to continue on normally - just like before.
I've found the opposite, actually.
It's been difficult.
Things aren't like they were before.
I had a feeling it would be this way...there are some seasons you know you'll just miss forever - they take hold of your heart in a way nothing has before and you can almost feel the pain of their absence before they've past.
That's the way this was...I anticipated the transition.
But what I didn't anticipate was the amount of courage that would be required.
I don't necessarily mean the courage to survive - I'm surviving just fine.
I'm talking about the courage to thrive.
There's a difference, you know.
I'm talking about perspective.
I'm talking about the courage required to stand in a seemingly bleak situation and to see the good....the courage to choose joy.
The kind of courage I'm talking about appreciates the past, but takes every moment as it is - savoring the seconds given.
It's the courage to take a day as it comes and not settle in discontent - to be grateful.
That's the kind of stuff this move has required - not to dwell in the sadness, or to balk at bumps in the road, but to rise above it and to continue to see the cup half-full.
Because it has been hard.
Transition is difficult.
I miss my friends in Japan and my Obaachans...I miss my lifeguard fathers and 7-Eleven.
Today, I thought about eating sushi more than I'd like to admit, and wanted to jump on a train to Miyajima.
The future is uncertain here and it has a tendency to loom, at times.
But that's when things are made most vibrant - because when circumstance would deem a situation bleak, the courage to be grateful colors it beautifully.
Faith infuses it with joy.
This is the kind of courage I'm talking about.
Not a physical courage as much as one of the Spirit.
It's not easy - it's sanctification.
But man, it's beautiful.
And He who calls us is ever faithful .
I hope you're finding courage too, this week, my friends.
I'll update more soon!